Saturday, January 24, 2009

P.S. ...

If you haven't seen the movie "P.S. I love you" ... you may not want to read this. Not that it is particularly suspenseful, but you know what I mean.

So the jist of the movie is that a young woman's husband has died from a brain tumor - but he has left letters to be delivered to her. The letters have instructions for her ... and they all end in "PS: I love you." At first it seems like the letters are just making her cling to him more ... but slowly throughout the movie you see that his instructions are pushing her to grow and to be herself again.

While it is a very romantic notion ... what really struck me is that we've had someone do just that. God is with us, but not in the flesh. He has left us love letters and instrucitons - the Bible. He reminds us He loves us ... and gives us instructions that will lead us to His best for us. Do you often stop and think of the Bible as a love letter? As part of "the church" we are His bride - why shouldn't it be? Jesus even tells us that if we are acting in love, we will be holding the other commandments. The theme throughout the Bible is God's love - and what it means for us.

At one point towards the end of the movie, Kathy Bates said that we're all alone - but if we're all alone, then we're all together in that. Ugh. The thought was just depressing. We don't all operate in islands of our own emotions! How the character could say that while clinging to her greiving daughter I don't know - she was sharing in her greif and comforting her!

This morning, my verse, my love letter, for the day was Genesis 2:18 - "The Lord God said, 'It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.'"

God basically designed us not to work in a bubble. We need Him, and we need each other. Perhaps part of the problem with marriages today is the Western ideal of independence ... that each of us operates as an island. We make connections, and bridges, but they are not considered permanent. The footnote in my Bible (NIV Life Application Study Bible - I need all the help I can get!) describes God's choice in making woman not from dust, but from Adam's flesh and bone as an illustration of marriage bringing two together as one flesh. It goes on to say that "The goal in marriage should be more than friendship; it should be oneness."

Its almost as if, even while I am drawing parallels to God from a movie, He is showing me where the parallel ends. Where society's ideas and ideals are out of line with His own - that I should expect more. How often do you hear someone describe their perfect mate as their "best friend?" And of course I want that to be true - but according to God - the marriage commitment means even more than that. It means you have to stop living on an island or in a bubble.

As my Mom has said after watching movies like this "Don't settle for anything less!"

Sunday, January 18, 2009

A year, a bird, and almondella

I'm not sure why the date sticks out in my mind, but on January 18th last year I was loading up my belongings into a moving truck I'd rented space on to send it back here to Texas. Wow - I sure don't miss moving in snow!

I can't believe I've been in Austin for nearly a year! It has flown by. And as anxious as I am to get my "life" in Dallas started, I realize that the next year is going to fly by just as fast as the last one.

On a recent trip to Bullard, my parents and I had gone into Petsmart for something - and we picked up some food for my bird. It is identical to the food she had last time ... but somehow the little pieces are a bit smaller. Apparently this is a problem - because my formerly mess-less sweetheart is dropping tiny biscuits EVERYwhere.

We also have had a bit of a cage malfunction as a result of my doing Tae Bo. I accidently whacked the cage in the midst of flinging myself about the living room of my apartment, and now one of the seed-catcher things on the side is a little wonky.

She has to be the sweetest little thing though - she was surprised and a little upset that I was hitting her, but it hasn't changed her opinion of me. I was clucking my tongue at her the other day, forgetting that she dances to snappy sounds like that and can't seem to stop even if she wants to. Suddenly she put her little foot over my mouth like "Stop it! I don't want to dance anymore!" Ha ha! The cold weather has made her rather cuddly too. Sometimes I'll put on my big sweatshirt and let her sit with me while I read or watch TV, and she likes to climb into the little pocket on the front to hang out. Too cute!

Today I had a rather disappointing culinary experiment. I tried to make "NOTella" ... a healthy version of Nutella. While it isn't disgusting, and it is chocolatey ... it is nothing like Nutella. Part of the problem is that I used almonds instead of hazelnuts. Apparently hazelnuts only exist at Christmas. They had bins and bins of them less than a month ago! I'm not sure where they all went, but I couldn't find a single hazlenut at my wal Mart. I probably should have tried HEB.