Even worse, I feel like in some way I have failed to give God glory for being awesome in my life and blessing me beyond my imaginings. He is good and faithful.
10 months ago, I packed all my belongings and moved 200 miles from my then boyfriend (now fiance) to work and live in a place where I knew virtually no one. But, I had hope ... because back in Austin with a different agency ... was a job opening doing what I do now (which I enjoy greatly!). This just had to be God's answer!
Well, despite being one of two people (out of 90 I hear) interviewed ... and even being lead to believe I was practically a shoe-in ... I didn't get it. And I cried out to God - "I don't get it, I didn't get it?" WHAT was I going to do? At the same time, I felt strongly that God was saying "NO" for a reason, and even felt a little relieved.
Refusing to let myself slip into depression, I trudged on. I rarely spent a weekend in DFW. Tim and I traveled constantly, even meeting in Waco for a date one weeknight. We went on our wonderful vacation in September and became engaged.
Meanwhile ... unexpectedly ... there was an opening with my current employer (who, lets face it, I would prefer to stay with) back in Austin. While being a current employee made an interview pretty much a guarantee, I waited anxiously - knowing that with government, a typo in just the wrong place could keep me out of the running.
But I did get an interview. And the day after I wrote "Control Freak" - I found out I got the job! So a month and a half later, here I am ... packing boxes. I still don't like moving ... but when I remind myself that I am moving HOME, and getting to continue doing this job I enjoy and don't have to worry about how I'm going to bring home any bacon ... it is with joy that I wrap things in paper and puzzle-piece them into boxes with multiple labels on the sides from previous moves.
God is good ALL the time. I'm so thankful for the safety He has provided through all this traveling, for all He has taught us in our time apart, and for this joyous homecoming at the start of 2011! I can't wait to see what He does next!